Deliberate Actions.

We are having a debate in our house about intent.

My middle daughter and I suffer from honesty. Those of you inflected with it know what I mean when I say we suffer. Now don't get me wrong, my personal honesty saved my sanity as a child of abuse. I knew who I was and who I am. . that being said I am sure most of the people who commit suicide are inflicted with this disease. I mostly use it to make others, not myself, uncomfortable. I love being a mirror. People are never honest with themselves about anything.

It is a burden, honesty. One of the biggest is deliberate actions. Those of us who never lie to ourselves are cursed in some ways. We know when we are being insincere, We know when we are using people. Other people can be mean by accident, but we can't everything we do is deliberate, examined and decided upon even in the split second. We are responsible for our actions.

How does a truth teller bridge the great divide that separates us from the "we did not mean to do it's"? I am married to one and we still get into that argument. I don't care if you meant to do it or not, it is done. Now deal.

Having dealt with this as a wife and mother for many years I have had it up to here (chin level) with this whole "not my fault 'cause I did not mean to do it" mentality. And yet our whole society lately has beseiged with a rash of large corporations coming to congress and lying to themselves and us by saying "we had no idea charging usurious rates and pocketing large amounts of cash would bite this whole country in the butt." Somehow the frustration makes me just a wee bit crazier.

No suprise there.

be joy filled.